THANK YOU FOR 50 FOLLOWERS! seriously, im amazed i got so far...
This here song i dedicate to you, the follower, for...well....following :D
Okay, now the second part: again i found myself in trouble when making the song...
i think it was due to me trying to emulate the styles of better, already established artists like Aphex Twin (one of my favorite artists/heroes) only to find i cant do squat about it and fail epically...
And, once again, i have reality swing a bat at my face upon realizing that doing that would ensure that i dont progress any further... what good would it do that i try and "copy" because of fanatism and (dare i say it) envy?
Envy? seriously? i would feel envy? dafuq is wrong with me?
Anyway, AFTER i decided to just shut up about not being able to emulate others and just "get the hell of your ass and make music! No matter how you do it just do it! DONT THINK JUST DO IT!" i found im more comfortable making my stuff, since im not being rigidly defined by someone else...
I still feel werid since i dont think im making the style i wish i could make thought (ambient techno, acid techno, techno, illbient?) but no matter...
thanks fauko, and true, trying to emulate others to the letter only inhibits your creativity. Its no use trying to be a clone... but this article i found does help understand the underlying fundamentalism of most of it:
If this is the result of your own creativity, then I hope it continues. I have also struggled thinking I wish I could make music a certain way, but have generally come to accept what comes out of me. I think allowing yourself to be passively influenced by your musical role models will help your creative self and maybe even your sense of accomplishment? Rambling... Great track :)