Turning 21 and Learning....

I AM the defnition of a social outcast.

Though I understand and can process vibes and emotions.

I am not good at keeping convos or verbally expressing how I feel at all.

I lost a good friend hanging with someone perpetrating as an outcast.

To this day that nigga is still the only one I can share my true interests with because of a genuine understanding.

Meditation:

I been doing this everyday for some years now. It's hard to always keep hard skin especially when you've had to keep that energy for 13+ years. And especially when people are deliberatley trying to test it.

School and people are unforgiving so you gotta forgive them and yourself cause if you don't no one will. It's not bad to feel down sometimes or to struggle it's apart of being human. But let that be a catalyst for greatness and not intertia.

Acceptance

Dont ever look for people to understand you. You will know when someone gets you. If you feel shakey about it don't engage unless you have to. We gotta navigate through life with poise and grace.

something I'm still mastering.

Money.

I say all of this to say...Most "freindships" (not really a friendship)" come with a price tag and an expiration on interest. Money ....You can't live without it. But never let that be the blood that fills the ventricles of human interaction...love. If you ain't got it dont worry about it too much. If you're legit and doing everything you can it will come.

Shit talk:

People gonna talk shit. Even people you thought wouldn't talk shit about you. Even people that say they don't talk shit about people. If you ever need to say anything negative to anyone make sure it's to them. The spirit of experience will apprcieate it.

Music.

We do this everyday. This is truly an outlet. Most of you are probably multi talented. Cherish your abilities and make sure they keep growing. Never let any comparison, shit talk, fake people keep you from your gifts. Your gifts need you as much as you need them. They're like your children.