Start {15 Sep 2022} -- End {9 Jun 2023}

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During this project I have been pensive on the perception and feelings of my existence on AT. I've made 'non-existence' my motto; and know it as reality. I've felt an inability to connect, to thrive on social platforms. An overbearing loneliness that I can't help to interpret as being uninteresting, and therefore having no business worth sharing. This is true in many other social mediums, but for some reason it is more depressing and demotivating here... I've tried, to connect, to grow, to be active. I've seen how connected Audiotool is, and yet I feel so far away... in a social void...

Why let this all out here? Because this is Audiotool, and music speaks from the soul. This platform has contributed to the same 'outcasted' image perceive on other platforms to a great degree, at the same time being the outlet of this expression as music, as 'Solitude'.

For the better, for myself, I will be stepping away from Audiotool for a long time...

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Inspired by..

Melatonin | Soupandreas

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Personal Observation

_I have always been uncomfortable with panning, but more so I struggled with the idea of layering. The latter was certainly strong-arm tackled in this one -- I'm proud of the outcome. I've also had an underlying fear of 'too much bass'. Where from? Perhaps a scary blog and a history of muddiness. I think I've got over that too. All this progress and I feel I haven't moved forward much. I only know that I'm still far from my expectations, still less than ideal._

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Any feedback is welcomed...