lyrics:

i can't find the words to describe how i feel

life without u just doesn't feel real

every night i lay in my bed

letting memories of what i said

haunt me in every single way

now i lay here thinking what to say

knowing we won't ever speak again

babe i just want to tell you...

i love you

we used to hang out almost every day

did shit that we're taking to our graves

then outta nowhere we parted ways

that sent me down a spiraling craze

now i know it was all a fucking lie

couldn't care less if i dropped and died

and that realization will always make me cry

never thought we'd say our final goodbye

Been trying to drink away

the sadness That i feel

Something i swore id never do

But how else can I forget you?

just wanna die

doesn't matter why

u fell for another guy

i caught u red handed

you thought it was splendid

til u realized

u were on the same account shared between u and i

I can't find the words to describe what i need

As i make my arms bleed

The greed takes over me

My life doesn't matter

There's no need

So let me just go on and eat

I've gained a lot of weight

I even lost my job

Always showed up late

Was too busy sob-

Bing

Never wore bling

Something i admired

We never could sing

Yet we did it til we tired

Fuck

I'll never forget you

How could i?

As our bond grew

We never could see eye to eye

Yeah We knew how to fuck

Yeah We knew how to fight

But when it came to solving problems

Yeah The fists would fly

Not literally, but it felt that way

Wtf do i even say?

Now as i lay in bed

Trying to Figure my life out

I contemplate not even waking up at all

Been trying to drink away

the sadness That i feel

Something i swore id never do

But how else can I forget you?

i produced the beat at about 2am, wrote the lyrics from 230am-440am