revamped an old project - it fits how I feel right now.
I came to audiotool because I can express and write better here than ableton, as well as getting a message out.
"Why have friends when they'll just end up fucking you over anyways? No matter how hard I try, we'll never work out. And you, YOU were right all along, fuck you."
Speaking of someone who was cut out of an entire community and what not.
Yes I very much understand this probably alot more than anyone.
It burns alot for a long period of time and you grow alot of anger in that time, but just look for friends outside of this medium. Like through a job or another hobby of some sort. I know i'm different from alot of people but it's best to run/retreat sometimes and just rebuild yourself.
.. Admittedly I have a hard time letting go. It was also much more than a friendship, it was an entire friend group, my first real friend group. I am not going to victimize myself though. I could have been better for them, as some of them could have been better for me. Unfortunately some people just aren't meant to be friends with each other. People change, and it fucking sucks.