Time and time again I have this feeling that I should just start from a blank slate like I used to do repeatedly years ago. Is there a way to fight this? Should I go along with it? Why should I even keep old tracks, other than to show progression?
I guess it's a self-conscience thing. I'm just tired of being conflicted all the time, might as well let the community decide for me. I could hide things, but then I'd have to sift through a bunch of abandoned tracks whenever I took a look at my account. I might be overthinking this. Being indecisive sucks.
Comments (16)
See, you shouldn't take advice from me really, but I've actually had this same problem exactly.
I joined audiotool in 2013 and can you even find my old music or accounts? not at all. I deleted them. I regret this because (1) I really want to develop myself as an artist and a brand, and I have absolutely nothing to show for these past years.
\
My solution: @fridgemeat
Having a second account can be helpful to offload the stress of perfection/self-consciousness. I can create without expecting a response, I can grow myself as an artist and take risks with trying new things. I think that's why a lot of other artists have these alter-aliases/second (spam) accounts. We want to express ourselves, but evade the potential backlash, (whether or not that exists beyond ourselves, or of our own mental constructs)
I see you actually recently created a second account.
If you want we should chat sometime. Maybe we could try and figure this out together (because trust me, I still feel like this more often than not)
Yeah, that would be cool. I'm a terrible perfectionist so this kind of stuff is worth weeding out so I don't pull all my hair off my head haha
Literally the exact same.
Do you have Discord?
indeed I do!
glorb #4456
oof, is there an emoji in that?
It says it couldn't find you
I guess you could just add me Apollo#2020
Alrighty, I added you
Got it, accepted!
You know, I have the exact same dilemma as you. What I do to compensate, though, is just listening to my old stuff and go “ew, this was bad. What was I THINKING?” Then listen to my recent stuff and find out hiw far you’ve come.
Ooooor, alternatively, if you're like me, you listen to your old stuff and think "Damn, I can barely make anything good anymore"
that is meeeeeeee
i like to keep my old tracks because i don't care what people think, and i like to see how i improve throughout time
Welp
Everyone has this
I agree with kurp, keeping old tracks shows improvment
Apollo, thats because you've gotten better. Remember you are dealing with 2 things that need to improve over time: your ear and your skill. Sometimes those develop at different rates. sometimes your ear develops faster than your skill, so you can HEAR things better but your skill needs to catch up. sometimes its the other way around and you're banging out new tracks with seemingly no effort. I regularly go back and listen to my old stuff and think "wow, that was good... way better than what i'm making right now... fuck i'm getting worse." because I'm listening to my new music with a much more critical ear and struggling, at the same time i can remember how "easy" it was making my old music. so i get discouraged.
but you gotta just keep pushing forward. thats the only way to combat it. you'll catch that wave again once your skill level and ear are on the same level.
Huh, that's really perceptive, I never actually thought of it like that.
Thanks for shedding light on that, I hope we can both develop that skill as we continue and grow